Life certainly is circular, if you spend enough time paying attention to it, or just to your life. We have all had a lot of time to contemplate the why, how, and when of the recent months and year. Personally, since I rather not speak for the masses, since that rarely goes well, I have had more than enough time to consider how I got here from there and then I stopped. I realized earlier this week, when the weather in New England (specifically southeastern Massachusetts) seemed really quite spring-like that I was doing things like it was 2015(and you thought I was going to say like it was 1999). I returned to walking around the park. For locals, all I would have to say was “Buttonwood”. It is somewhat, but not really, as though I was referring to New York City or Manhattan as “The City”. You know what it means. Local code.
I wish I could have said that I stopped my walking because of “the virus”, but in fact, it had been quite a few years that I consistently did this particular walk early in the morning. When I started writing this blog in 2015, my best blogs (IMHO) were contemplated on that walk, early in the morning, by myself, not lonesome or lonely, just quiet, which is how I enjoy it. Have you had a moment recently, when a past experience comes to your memory as you recall it and re-start it, and the emotions you feel are a mix of elation and melancholy? It is as though you didn’t know how much you missed it, until it was there for you again to experience. The park, the walk, the people (since I don’t have the park for just myself), and the dogs and ducks, all came into my view and my heart with a sigh of sweet regret that I hadn’t found my way back until now.
I drove up to my formerly usual parking spot and sat in the car, gathered my walking belongings (phone, keys, license, credit card, three quarters) and put my sunglasses on and stepped out of the car. No mask. Nope mask. Nada mask. Just my face. In case you wonder why I carry all those items, it is because they just seem like they are necessary, although there is no place to shop, and there are no phone booths. I don’t overthink this although it might be something instilled in my upbringing by my mother who would go through a predetermined list of things one must have when going outside in “The City”. It probably really included dimes, not quarters, JIC (just in case as we used to say). I walked by people and they saw my face. I saw their face. We smiled. We said “Good Morning!” in a hearty but not too hearty tone and kept our social distance JIC. It was….GLORIOUS! It was regular, normal, black, no cream, one stevia or splenda normal. It was an A+ moment, one for the record books. It was Sunday Funday Monday and so on. I smiled at the dogs, and at their owners. I smiled at the ducks and their ducklings. I didn’t hide my smile behind a mask, which is one of those things that made me so sad. When I would see someone in a store or some other place inside or outside, where people have gathered within the last year, I would acknowledge them with my eyes, but they couldn’t see my smile. It’s not a fabulous smile, it’s just a shy-like “nice to see you today and we don’t even know one another but I am smiling behind this mask” smile. A smile is the shortest distance between two people and it measures greater than six feet. It’s a cool thing to do. I even sat on a bench with a pinecone, who mentioned that his name was Tony. He said he was smiling. I said “Nice to meet you, Tony. Nice smile.”