Complexity. A metaphor for love. A vital part of our functioning that can be strong and at a moment’s notice, can break, or get damaged. And yet, our heart, collective or individual, can grow in ways we never considered, expanding to include the best of the most miraculous events, and at other times, can contract when things become too much, too difficult.
This particular calendar year has been filled with my own growth as well as the expansion of my heart. I am also surrounded by so many people who have had the same experience, finding that falling in love can happen over and over, and over again. Hearts melt and swell with the joy of new family members in the guise of babies! Some of us have become grandparents again, or for the first time, and others have become parents, aunts, uncles and whatever name your relationship with someone new takes on. It redefines our place in the universe, as we are reminded that we are on a path which recognizes we are forever changing, and the change is happening around us, and sometimes to us, but that we are impacted in some way we might not have expected.
I am always surprised at how much I can love, and how my capacity grows. My oldest granddaughter, at 3, can show me that she can be compassionate, funny, serious and joyful, all in a matter of moments. She invites my FHB and me into her world and to watch her figure out what she wants, and how she can discover something new. engages us, time after time. It never, ever, gets old. We fall in love every time we see her, or see her picture. The best part is when she speaks to us and it’s just us, listening and having a conversation. Three year olds are incredibly smart and teach us so much. My newest granddaughter, at almost eight months can smile and connect and communicate with her eyes and her vocalizations and we just enjoy holding and hugging and kissing this lovely girl. We are kept in the moment, which is a child’s mission. It is about them, and now, and the world goes away and our attention is riveted.
There is awe in watching the generation we have created take on the world, creating their next generation, as well as figuring out how to recognize the needs of others and take care of business. We hope that they can rebuild the broken hearts and broken systems for the people who live among us and those who have been born this year in our world. We too, have faced a lot of unexpected pain and damage, imagining the world a certain way, only to find out, it is not the way we thought it was, or was going to be. When things don’t work out, we have to reach out and try again, until it is better, and better for us and for everyone. We have to put our heart in it, and take heart and heal that which is broken.
As the year closes, many are grateful to put it behind them, as it may be a ledger sheet that has more minuses than pluses. It’s all how you spin it. It was “the best of times,it was the worst of times, it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness…”. It was all of it, and yet, if you add up what you decided to take on, and minus those things you let go of, for good or for bad, you may discover that you may have broken even. For those who were not around to see this year, or those who left us this year, we must acknowledge that new life and every life is precious and important. We take a chance, with every beat of our heart, to live the best life we can. It seems like it was just a year ago, and here we are again. I need very little, but want very much, not for me but for those who have a piece of my heart.